it's all about nia karlyssa.... :)

look at my purple shoes!
im officially 3 months and 63 cm on 280708
dgn mummy waiting for my turn
boringlah main ka ching ka ching
this is interesting!!

tido without mummy
wif chu chitty
on my way to my 3 months check up
mana daddy :(
merajuklah..

tido di kopicat kafe
hey im a gangster k!
tido tapi garang
tangan kaku
tak gerak walau kena kacau pipi


goldfish
penat lepas exercise

im 6.35 kg n im scared :(
shud i feel guilty for drinking so much milk?

penat lepas shooting wif my daddy
i love eating my mittens nowadays

wif mummy but i merajuk taknak pandang camera

baju tido panjang from granny
before i cried at bubba gump
boring la mummy ni asyik ambik gamba!
waiting to create my 'drama'

i think it's 100% mummy la!

without my fringe i look bulat la
sama tak serupa:P
do i look like him?? :p

i love playing wif tweety
at last i got sleepy
nangis nangis nangis

mummy came home every friday to feed me!!
i love sleeping in the "kendong"
tendang tweety!!yay!!
oops.takut.tweety jeling saya la.
my mummy calls this place as "my school" and those creatures are "my frens"

random pictures-pre-delivery,post delivery n the precious baby-

nia 2 months plus
look at her lips..
lepas mandi :)

baseball rompers from her daddy

miss fargu tunangan org
noen,mira,me n elsa
her first trip to alamanda..mengamuk!
had to breastfeed dlm the coast
muka terpaksa hisap puting

geng zaman dulu dulu
rini n me
adik ya n me
miss put n me
sultan n me

with anis 200408
chickies without meq.look at how big nia was in my belly!
our first moment together
awal subuh 270408
me, b'cha n dik ya

meq's wedding
meq's nikah,a week before the delivery
my last picture with nia inside me :)
muka yang sama je :p
muka yang sama again...

well this time i will upload my pictures je...nak balas dendam coz lama sgt tak upload2 gambar from my camera..malas n dok tangguh je after delivery..so all these pics might not be relevant to u but to me they still are..even after 3 months..esok nak upload lagi..gambar2 after giving birth pulak:)

a birthday & an anniversary

happy 34th bday to my dearest hubbybarney & happy 1 year anniversary to both of us! these 2 impotant events happened on the 12th n 13th of july :)

well, at the age of 34 my husband is finally a daddy to a beautiful daughter n we r both very happy n thankful to Allah that after 1 year of marriage, we are finally blessed with a bond we called -FAMILY. we finally have our own, small family consists of hubby, me n shugiga :) from now on everytime raya, we will have our own familypicture:) best kan!

these events were celebrated jointly last saturday. siang sabtu tu me n hubby went out for our date at the gardens, did some shopping to reward ourselves (not forgetting shugiga) n had our not-so-lovely lunch at a WRONG place.phuh.macamana boleh termakan kat situ.takperla. so we plan to celebrate our anniversary just the two of us at bora asmara on sunday tapi i demam la pulak.so postpone this weekend:)

well, his birthday was celebrated at bubba gump the curve.all of us went there.his family, mine n our precious daughter! we dressed her up n she slept all the way to the curve.woke up when we put her in the stroller n started to wander around. she cried for milk exactly when i was about to see the menu.so i fed her wif TWO bottles of milk (my daughter nak membesar, minum banyak sgt).after minum dia start tak selesa. thought she wanted her usual nippies and i was about to stuck her tiny mouth into my nippies UNDER her new batik baby sling when she cried n wailed, refusing to drink from my nippie! terkejut n gabra all of us coz she cried kuat sgt.!! and that place was a lil bit hot,not suitable for a baby like giga.so i had to pujuk her and comfort her,rupa2nya dia nak BURP. after that she comfortably slept in the baby sling while i ate my "tak menarik" food.tak sedap.whatever shrimp dgn nasi n crab meat tapi tak sedap.cold.made me want to go to bora asmara MORE.

well our family dinner went well after shugiga punya "drama" tu.after that she became a good girl.will upload the pictures later.well mummy was really happy dpt bawak keluar nia jalan2 mlm tu,finally.jealous setiap kali keluar mall tgk org lain bwk baby tp baby kita tinggal rumah :( saturday was the only day my hubby was free so on sunday, tho it was our anniversary, it was not celebrated.but me n giga went to creative lite box studio where barney had his album photo shoot n giga was featured in the album cover!she was in her good mood n kept on looking at the camera so the pictures turned out comel!!hehe baby baru 2months plus dah pegi photo shoot ek?!!comel!!

oh btw, my nia karlyssa has become a very sensitive little girl yg hatinya sgt lah fragile. there was this one time where i went home late after work coz i went to the gym.so balik2 i had to clean up myself dulu b4 i touch her.so sure dia pelik how come dah mlm tapi mummy dia takder lg.suddenly after my bath, my mom ketuk pintu n i bukak my mom was there sambil dukung nia.the moment nia saw me, terus dia cemek!!sedihhh sgt muka dia!!skrg kalau lambat bg susu je dia dah pandai sedih n mencemikkan mulut dia.n dia akan refuse puting botol or my nippies until we comfort her,belai2 her.phew...terikut perangai mak dia waktu mengandung,suka merajuk. so ladies, it is true when they say budak akan ikut perangai mummy dia waktu mengandung. sensitif, manja, merajuk semua nia dah master very2 well!

okaylah.its friday n im off to feed nia.btw, congrats to my best fren for the beautiful news :) im glad Allah answer ur prayers:)

LOVE - Sempurna...

it is amazing how u can have 2 different sets of feelings of love towards 2 different persons. that's how im feeling towards my hubby n my lil girlie.

ive been in love with my hubby for nearly 4 and a half years . and from the beginning ive gone thru a lot of things n ive felt a lot of feelings towards him. talking bout love, it's a wonderful feeling that couldnt be described. everytime love strucks by, i feel as if i miss him like crazy n i really mean CRAZY. i'll be calling him endlessly with nothing to say except i miss u n i love u. and when i couldnt control my feelings everytime i feel lonely without him, i know that is what i call LOVE between me n hubby. it's more than that actually but i wont dwell on that...

n now comes the 2nd love of my life.nia karlyssa. ive been dreaming of her ever since...forever! i mean i always have this wish to have a baby girl as my first child. and when i met my hubby,we both love imagining n 'creating' our imaginary children. one is shugagi (if he's a boy) and one is shugiga (if she's a girl). before we got married, everytime we were far away n the phone is the only mode of our communcation, we would act by asking each other "how's shugagi/shugiga?" "let me talk to her" "uwek uwek alamak shugagi/shugiga nangis rindu u la".that was before we got married. n it continues until we found out that i was preggie. my love towards my child grows the moment i knew she was inside me. i kept on imagining she was in the baby cot crying for our attention when i was 8 months preggie. i kept talking to her n telling her all my stories everyday when i was alone. i even recorded my voice 'talking to her' in the phone. everytime i saw her in the little scanning machine my heart jumps out of excitement coz that's the only way i could see her n know that she's doing alright :)

n from the moment she was born where i hold her in my arms,my first tear for her rolled out. i was so thankful to GOD's creation. we shared the same blood n food for 9 months n now that she's finally 'out' of my body i felt sad.because all this while i had her to myself.exclusive possession.but now i have to share her wif others:( huhu but that's the fact of life. and 2 months plus being wif her in real world, i started to understand n love the feeling of being a mother. when u have a child, she will be the most cutest adorable beautiful child in ur eyes. regardless of what other people think, ur child will be the number one. every single thing that she does amuse me like hell n i feel so proud at her the first time i saw her smile, the first time i saw her giggle, the first time she managed to lift her head up....i feel so proud that i can tell others about every single thing she did in a day including the time when she poo poo! n now i understand why my mum felt so proud of me even when i only managed to get number 3 back then in primary school:) the fact that as a mother who gave birth to our own child, we will be proud of our child n their achievement will be the best in our eyes. no need comparison wif other people's child. my nia will still be the cutest baby ever in the whole world thru the eyes of her mummy :)

and if u wanna know how exactly is the feeling of a heart melting out just like the chocolate melts under the sun? that's how i feel everytime i see her smiles:) i swear! (this feeling is totally differentwhen it comes to my hubby coz i tak melt sgt dgn dia:p)

and now nia karlyssa, mummy was driving to work this morning when i suddenly heard the lyrics of this song.it made me smile coz the lyrics convey my feelings towards u. so i dedicate this song for u but mummy promise that i will write a lyric just for you one day nanti kay? n mummy really pray that u will love mummy back as much as mummy loves you....

*Sempurna by Andra And The Backbone*

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan selalu memujamu
Di setiap langkahku ku kan selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
tak kan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna

Sayangku engkau begitu sempurna.. sempurna.. sempurna..

Back to WORK :(

After 2 whole wonderful months spending time wif karlyssa, finally on the early morning of 1st of july 2008, i woke up looking at her sleeping face wif a very very heavy heart. she was sleeping in her comfort zone (bawah ketiak mummy dia) innocently without knowing that she wont have her usual "nippies" everytime she turned her head to her right n bukak mulut mcm anak burung mintak makanan :( kesiannnnn sgt imagining that she couldnt have her morning milk direct from the nippie anymore :( sedih sgt nak angkat badan ni perlahan2 from the bed without waking her up:( tak sampai hati sgt2 nak tinggalkan dia dgn muka dia yg comel waktu tido (bcoz one of her most comel look to me is waktu karlyssa baru bgn tido!)

but what can i do?i woke up n bersiap2...tgh gosok gigi i heard her small cry so i quickly went to the bed n feed her kejap then she fell asleep again...after i got ready, sent her to the maid n kissed her on the cheek n went straight to the car.but half way thru, i turned back to her n kissed her again b4 going off...mmg mcm drama!while driving i got a lil bit emotional, missing her like crazy n thinking that i cud only spend 12 hours wif her everyday :( i cudnt be bonded wif her in the next 12hours like we usually did...berkepit 24/7 :( in the office, all i did was looking at her pics in my hp n camera.trust me, hanya gambar nia yg penuh dlm hp i!

well, nia karlyssa barbie shomel, mummy rindu nia.like crazy.n now i truly understand why some mothers would rather quit their job n be a fulltime housewife just to make sure they wont miss witnessing their child's first smile. if only i have that choice.

hmmm tak guna sedih2...now everytime the clock strikes 5pm, mummy cabuutt coz so eager to meet u darling! n some updates on shugiga, she's 2 months 5 days!
~60 cm (doc kata dia akan jadi tinggi coz tinggi dia mcm baby umur 3 bulan lebih)
~5.3 kgs
~dah pandai senyum n gelak n respond bila kita agah dia!
~suka tgk2 benda kalau kita tunjuk dia
~suka buat that cute meneran face everytime dia berry
~dah pandai merajuk n cemek setiap kali mummy dia lambat bagi nippie!
~no more waking up late at night..just to change her diaper coz she depends fully on breast milk yg mummy bagi sambil tido mengiring...so both of us have good sleep at nights!
~dah mcm org besar, wktu siang tido kejap2 je, malam baru tido
~buat perangai waktu mummy n daddy bwk jln2 kat alamanda coz she refused bottle milk since she can smell my nippie, can u believe it i breastfeed her in a restaurant?!!!
~the only place yg dia tak meragam is our kafe, she behaves like a goody girlie!
~semua kata muka dia mcm daddy except her nose which she inherits from her mummy!
~first time demam after her 2months injection on the 30th june :( kesian sgt.well she cried gila2 lepas kena inject unlike the first injection but she quickly stopped once the nurse showed her the mainan yg gantung2 warna warni tu.terus dia suka tgk!
~dah banyak nyamuk jahat gigit dia!!
~she couldnt sleep without her mommy. dah try test last saturday where me n hubby went out for a date for the first time!n we went for late nite movies.kesian nia tak bole tido sampai we reached home pukul 1 lebih! so b'cha n mak yg jaga dia but she didnt cry only that she refused bottle milk or pacifier coz she was waiting for her usual 'nippie' routine b4 she goes to sleep :p

hmmm that's all at the moment...cant wait to see nia..i think ive called the maid like 10000 times to check on my baby girl!huhu now i understand why my mom used to call the house so many times to check on us last time!huhu.i enjoy motherhood wif my lil nia :)