Monday, April 13, 2009

april- the month of love-





during my brother's merisik ceremony last weekend.makcik kecik yg dah boleh jalan :)



its april, finally:)

this is the month where i received the greatest gift from Allah,a year ago:)

well, lots of things have happened since my last post.i think i will elaborate on my lil princess in the last part :) most of my weeks last march were spent doing induction and btn at nilai. the whole process were tiring both mentally and physically.but the memories were very precious and i learnt a lot about my beloved country MALAYSIA.so now,i appreciate my country more:) hehe.for the first time since nia was born, we both got separated for 5days 4nights!! bayangkanlah betapa beratnya siksaan menanggung rindu :( huhu hari2 mms je muka nia.but one thing about her, dia jenis kalau depan mata mmg clingy habis but once out of her sight, dia bukan kesah pun :(
habis btn, i started back my normal routine.what else?go back to work and continue uruskan hal-hal rumah baru.i can tell you, moving into a new house is not as easy as ABC.mind torturing, planning the budget, dealing with the contractors and banyak lagi la..so memang this month my focus bnyk towards my new 'love nest'.hehe:) insyaallah, we plan to celebrate nia's 1st bday at our new love nest:) hopefully langsir semua dah settle by that time.
last week, me n barney were invited as the guest for a programme called 'sehati sejiwa' at rtm1. nia wal also featured in that programme!it was a 1 hour live show and basically it's a show about married couple, and we were interviewed about our married life; pre marriage and post marriage :) most of the callers who called commented on my new image and congratuled me.tapi ada satu caller tu dia ucap tahniah to barney "kerana telah berjaya mengubah isteri!" haha.memang tak tahan nak gelak la coz actually, penghijrahan i was not forced by anyone including my hubby.

i received a lot of comments, ramai terkejut and tak sangka it was 'that fast'.yah, i dont have to tell the whole world before it happens kan?but once it happens, i knew i have to get ready to receive 'stares adn comments'. bila masuk office, ramai ingat i new officer,haha and ramai la jgk yang toleh dua tigaa kali!but alhamdulillah, i received good comments on my new look. so, takde lah rasa malu or segan.insyaallah, if niat baik, semua berjalan lancar and suprisingly after more than a month wearing tudung, i takda rasa rimas, panas or pening sebab tak biasa kan.

however, i will always remember these 2 incidents/comments:

1. i was walking with barney in ikea.just the two of us and it was our first date after i wore tudung. as we walk, holding hands, i can tell you, the malays, they were staring and ni jenis pandang siap toleh yang tak cover and siap siku2 kawan diorng konon nak bagi signal "eh tgk dia.pegang tgn dgn perempuan lain!". haha their faces were so like geram macam syak my hubby jln dgn org lain!one thing that i can conclude; typical malays..suka gossip, suka jump into conclusion.takpelah sayang, as long as we know the truth..

2.a friend of mine in another division told me that ada sorang p.a to her boss said this to my friend: "puan, puan punya kawan tu dah berubah ya. bagus.saya suka tgk dia dgn imej baru dia. sebelum ni saya TAK berapa SUKA tgk dia". so what can i conclude from this? cepatnya perception berubah, terus suka sedangkan she didnt even know me. just because i pakai tudung.well i dont like this kind of mentality,i know, before this pun bila free hair mmg sesetengah org tak suka n anggap kita ni social sgt, gedik just because we wear short skirts to office!kesian my frens yg tak pakai tudung lagi..apa agaknya p.a tu anggap kat diorng? my clost frens know that tho my image has changed, im still the same old tini,ok :) this is again one typical mentality of the malays: siapa pakai tudung baik, siapa tak , jahat. hhmm..go and do ur own research k?

oh ya, one more funny incident yg i akan ingat was during my induction programme.i was wearing a suit on that day and suddenly a male magistrate came and approached me; "excuse me, can i get ur name pls?to me u look really, really professional! seriously, u look professional! are you from the court too?" haha, my friend kat sebelah i terus geram "so i ni apa?tak professional la, i pun pakai suit!just becoz im free hair so i guess i must have look like a bimbo right??" haha funny sgt waktu tu. and ended up that person who commented on me 'tersuka' i and started texting me coz he thought im still single!terkejut dia bila tau im a mother of one! :)

back to my intention to 'move' in the first place; it all happened from within.i knew i wanted to wear tudung but i didnt know when was the right time to do it.but i knew the time has come when my feeling jadi berkobar2 sampai termimpi2 and the urge came.so finally i decided that 9th march was the right day.hubby was quite suprised when i first told him about this.at first dia tak percaya tapi bila tgk stock tudung i yang bertambah from one day to another, he knew i was serious..satu je dia pesan, and i will always remeber it "u nak pakai tudung boleh, tapi ingat, once dah pakai, jgn bukak lagi ya".insyaallah sayang, i will stick to my decision :)

so, as for nia karlyssa, she still recognizes her mummy and tetap kenal. tapi kdg2 geram jgk coz dia suka tarik my tudung! on her development, she's turning 1 year old in exactly 2 weeks time! cepat je anak mummy dah besar!and alhamdulillah she can now walk steadily!jauh and lama without any help! i was so happy to see her walk like an anak beruang + penguin!! she also understands the 'meaning' of bird and kipas and mamam (makan). suka tong sampah (sgt geram), suka pukul muka mummy and everytime i scolded her for this, she will cebik and nangis sedih sampai menitis air mata! sumpah comel so i pun marah dia banyk kali nk ulang tayang!haha.gigi dah nak masuk 4 batang and she's a fierce biter a.k.a anak serigala!

my baby is still in her 10++ kilos and 72 cm.she likes to eat and taste new foods.and she is really bijak.im proud of u dear!

Friday, March 13, 2009

a letter to nia karlyssa ...


Dear Nia, look at both of us back then, somewhere about a year ago....this was the first time we met yet we didnt feel like strangers to each other at all!

and there i was, a week before u were born, still confused how u would look like, whether u're gonna be like mummy or more to daddy??


owh, remember our first outing session to alamanda when mummy was still in confinement period?yeah,we used to share 'things' that we dont do anymore now :(


and look at you on your very first day!!u looked so puffy and different!!

well..young girl...a year nearly passed by...and things have changed...just look at you now...

u can stand on ur own!

u wear the same shoes like ur daddy have!

u are so tall n u didnt even change ur clothes b4 u went to sleep (until mummy did 4 u)

And now...mummy has changed too...a big change, i shall say....

I USED TO BE THIS...


and now, here i am...starting from our prophet's birthday...
hope u like mummy's new image :)

did i tell u that i used to think this way before: "isshh taknak la nia membesar...kalau boleh nak nia jadi baby je...so small, fragile and harmless..."
well, i couldnt imagine u growing up into a lil girl, toddler, teenager and a lady...
but that's life dear, we grow up and no matter how much i love you and miss feeding u wif my milk, i know one day u will marry your man, have your own family, and feed ur own baby wif ur own milk, just like mummy did to you...:)
ouch.that imagination hurts. but i wanna grow old looking at you living happily and be successful.

well, nia dear...im so thankful for the changes..both for u and me..we both are going thru the phases of life (tho ours may be different) and i hope things will go smoothly for us :)

love, mummy nia.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

my 10 months old nia











HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL NIA!
she turned 10 months old last saturday. ever since her arrival into this world, ive seen so many developments in her; mind, body and soul.hehe. every development is so exciting yet full of suprises :) lets's see what her capabilities are at the moment:

  • dah tumbuh satu batang gigi dkt bhgn bawah.so cute!semakin geli and sakitla pipi ni everytime nia gigit mummy dia!alhamdulillah, no signs of fever at the moment..
  • besides waving her hands, she developed a new skill- some sort of flying kiss tapi tgn dia terbalik sikit la dari yg kita buat "mmmmuuuah,mmmuuahhh"!

  • i noticed that my daughter likes ayam and birds so much!she can totally ignore everybody else if the chickens are in front of her.we also use this as a trick to distract her attention -so that she can makan ubat or eat her porridge.

  • her very first clear words that we think she could understand the meaning at the same time is -BIRD.hehe..everytime we ask her, mana bird? she will point her tiny finger at the bird and says "berrr". cutie.

  • she can also pronounce dedeehhh(daddy) nananana(no,no,no) but sadly not mummy.mamamama ada la...

  • apart of her super fast crawling activities, she could stand steadily on her two feets sambil pegang benda or clap her hands. :) cant wait for her to find the courage to step!

  • she will automatically clap her hands everytime we sing "pok amai amai, belalang kupu-kupu" she did this even when she's angry or crying!kelakar ok!

  • she hates sitting in her cot,will automatically fake her cry (very drama queen) and mintak dukung.she prefers crawling freely sambil menyepahkan bilik and almari baju...

  • dah start makan makanan adults.she loves half boiled eggs! kdg2 geram jgk bila semua yg kita makan dia nak try,mana boleh ok??!

  • susah sgt nak duduk lama2 dalam stroller.have to trick her.

  • she doesnt watch tv at all.no cartoons whatsoever.not that i didnt allow her,cuma i like to sit in my room n she will sit there too.so no tv.

  • makin notty, makin garang!no no no!
now, i feel much relaxed and i treat her like a friend.she's so determined, she will try to get the things she wants,no matter what, she will try hard.and she's quite independant, she can play alone in our room while her mummy spend her own sweet time playing dressed-up :p thanks sayang, i love you and i will always pray for ur safety n good health. muah!

p/s:cant wait to organize ur 1 year birthday bash!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

babies month

our trip to cameron highland that was scheduled on the 7th and 8th february was cancelled due to mummy's and daddy's sickness.daddy got high fever n mummy got her untolerable piles. i was on mc for the whole week.couldnt walk nor sit.the last time i had this worst nightmare was in 2007-when i was in my first trimester..

i must admit i was very very frustrated coz this trip was supposed to be our very first mini family trip.just the 3 of us..tapi :( and now we still cant find a perfect dat coz barney is very2 busy on weekends...hhmm mimpi la lagi.. so,on the 7th tu, sebab geram sgt tak dpt pg cameron, me n barney brought shugiga to taman burung in kl :) at least we brought her out and thank god,nia enjoyed her mini trip so so much!we were very happy to see her smile and through out the walk she didnt even merengek mintak dukung!she sat in her stroller and bising sorang2 tgk burung.i guess my daughter enjoys nature so much unlike her parents, we both got exhausted eventho baru separuh taman tu kita jalan, so we decided to go back! tak berhenti minum pun coz mengah.hehe.ye lah 2-2 sakit..

well, a good friend of mine, far is getting married to lan kismis in 3 days time!syukur and i wish both of you happiness :) cant wait for her wedding day! i'll be taking leave on that day :) hehe

for the past 1 week (14thfeb-22nd feb) 4 of my friends delivered their babies safely:) congratulations to 3 baby boys (k.dana, yen/ida and meq/ajee) and a baby girl (kak ira). it's amazing that 4 of them could be 'making' babies at the same time back then!haha. well, meq is one of my chickies, a small sister to me and i felt quite sentimental looking at her lying on the bed as a mother :) we knew each other since we were so small n now u have a big responsibility dear!cant wait for dikya's turn (it would be funny kan?) her baby farel is huge 4.1 kg and so adorable at the same time!at the moment he looks more like meq, but babies' faces do change kan!hehe.cant wait to visit him again! but i have high respect for her coz knowing meq (hehe) im proud she gave birth naturally when her baby's head is so big comparing to her pelvics!!congrats dear!

on another note; ahmad zulkamal, my senior in uitm and a colleague of mine in agc passed away on saturday 21stfeb09. al-fatihah. it was a shock as i just bumped into him for 2 days in a row before saturday and now he's gone. tho i am not close to him, i learnt one thing for sure; appreciate your loved ones no matter where they are.u might see them today,but no more tomorrow....

back to nia, she got her 2nd pneumococal injection on the 11th feb. and now she's 10.4 kg!haha only 1 kilo naik after 2 months...ye lah, baby pun aktif merangkak and berdiri sana sini..so no more baby demok i guess??alhamdulillah, since new year nia tak kena demam lagi.batuk2 sikit2 tu ade la tapi cepat recover.i guess the vaccine works :)

my darling is turning 10 months old/young in 4 days time! will update on her development later!

tata.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

B**BS issue

i have an issue with my b**bs.



before i got married, i always complained about how small it was.i want a bigger one.haha



as soon as nia was born, my B became obvious and of course bigger.i had to change all my work shirt to a size L. L??!!haha just because of my B.pakai la baju longgar bawah tapi ketat atas ke tempat kerja.i started thinking, bigger B is not as satisfying as it sounds! my body is just not proportionate anymore! banyak baju tak muat dibutang and i became paranoid!!



as soon as i stopped breastfeeding nia at the age of 6 months, i got my first red flag on my brithday (after 1 year and 2 months of hassle free monthly routine!!) and for every month, i will get the red flag on the exact date as my first one.so my mom said im SUBUR jadi kena la berhati2 ya :)



months after months,as my body shrinks, my B shrinks too.and i really mean SHRINK.i have to change back to my pre-natal bras and im thankful actually that it has come back to its normal size.HOWEVER, my issue here is, it's not only small in size but i think it has no 'fillings', isi takde, mcm karipap tak berintikan kentang.haha.i consulted my mom and she said it's normal that after breastfeeding dh habis, our B will become lemah dan tak bermaya..huhu sedih kan??i asked her, whether we need to apply any creams yg berlambak2 available di pasaran tu untuk mengembalikan kesegarannya?and she answered "ala, lama2 dia normal balik la,tgk mak ni, keras je kan??" hahaha. geram but true enough.so ,tunggu je la ye,and exercise sikit tgn tu my mom ckp.



so to any of you who have experinced this and dah guna any miracle cream, share lah ye :)

Thursday, February 5, 2009

family planning

family planning has been a 'trend' lately. for newlyweds, most of them opt to use many methods of family planning for various different reasons. well, it's up to them right? as for me n hubby, we never planned for children after we got married.alhamdulillah, after 2 months of marriage, i was pregnant for 5 weeks :)

after nia was born, i was introduced to various methods of family planning by my gynae. before my confinement ended, i met my gynae and we discussed about family planning while hubby sat outside with little nia who was just 1 month plus. she explained to me about 4 types of family planning which i can choose, namely:

1. contraceptive pill
2. injection
3. iud
4. implan

if im not mistaken, the result of all 4methods is we wont get our monthly red flag. i asked the doctor, "takda jerawat keluar ke?kulit cantik ke?perut tak bloated ke?" coz in my mind, if darah tak keluar, sure badan kita penuh dgn darah kotor kan?haha.actually, the effect of all these is to stop our menstrual system so mmg our telur2 tu takkan dikeluarkan pun in the first place.so there's no such thing as telur tu tak disenyawakan lalu menjadi darah kotor....:)

if i choose the pill, meaning i will get the chance of forgetting to consume it due to time factor,lupa or undiscipline. bcoz we need to eat the pill every single day without fail.or else we will get the chance of being subur okayy..so option no.1 i tak minat.

the second choice is injection or suntikan hormon progestin in any parts of my otot lengan, punggung or paha. this injection will release a hormone called progestin that will stop our ovulation process in the uterus. this injection will only last about 10-13 weeks. meaning, we have to 'renew' the injection at the end of every 3 months. hmm.i dont like this,just like renewing my driving license where i tend to forget especially when it's last minute so last2 jadi malas.sgt tak praktikal especially if we are busy and need to set an appointment date yg kdg2 tak boleh ditepati.

iud is a small thing made of plastic which contain progestin hormone too.basically the function is the same, once it is inserted in our vagina, it will 'thicken' our servics and sort of jadi penyumbat la untuk halang the sperms from entering the uterus lalu persenyawaan telur pun tak menjadi:(
huhu...hhmm..ni pun i kureng sikit,of course, imagining something being inserted in our vagina for a few years!!oh noooo...

the last option explained to me by my gynae is implan or implanon. its a small plastic rod yg sgt la nipis dan pendek which is inserted under our skin at the arm part.the effect is also the same as method number 3.hormon yg sama juga akan dirembeskan.hehe.these method is quite popular nowadays, even the doctor has been using it for a few years.and to her, not getting her period is so besstt!! (mmg best pun coz tak leceh and takyah beli pad kan??) these implanon will last for 3 years and if within the 3 years, say 2 years tibe2 we change our mind and nak anak balik,we can just take it out.usually after few months buka,regular period akan dtg balik..and implanon will make our skin become softer n supple!hehe.best2.the only negative part is, since our hormone dah lari, so nafsu makan mungkin naik n if tak berhati2, boleh naik berat badan la :( but implanon only costs rm500 at my gynae's place and i think it's worth the 3 years period.
so, option no 4 sgt2 la menarik hati saya yg tak sabar2 nak bagitau n bincang dgn suami :):):)

so i set another appointment date wif the doctor for implanon and walked out of her room happily.as i opened my mouth about "kaedah merancang", my husband's face changed.he has his own reasons la..firstly, tak elok rancang2, nanti tuhan tak bagi betul2 after 3 years tu macamana? secondly,he's already 35 this year so he doesnt want to send his child to std 1 when he's already 50 :p thirdly, im still young, so at this age i should do my part as a wife which is to produce babies so that by the age of 30 i can rest and maintain my body :0)

ok ok sayang,who am i to object u, right?after lots of arguments pun i think ur reasons tu masuk akal after i have done deep,considerate thinking.well,it all depends on the husband and wife to reach and settle on an agreement.so,no 2nd visit to the gynae as scheduled,and now we are just practising the natural method..insyaallah,when nia reaches 2 years old,she may get a new companion :) kesian kan kalau sorang2 takda kwn...then maybe i will start thinking about these methods again.apa pun kita hanya mampu merancang je kan??

btw,im just sharing these infos for our future guidelines as every couple has different goals to achieve in their lifes.the choice is in our hand,whether to have 1,2,3, or even 10 children.the only problem is the time factor,sanggupkah anda melalui segala proses mengandung dan bersalin sedangkan rahim dan badan and belum cukup rehat lagi??whatever it is, family planning is good to improve and maintain our family's financial, educational and economical status. the choice is yours, and i have chose mine :)

nerdy singer

im supposed to sing tomorrow.solo.so not me.plssss!! singing is so not meeee!!!

btw,i was given my very first bill.but im only assisting. new experiences...new headaches..
the bill is supposed to be tabled on march. but march will be a hectic month.why? coz i wont be in the office for the whole month due to kursus induksi and btn!argghh shugiga, mummy will be away from u for the first time :( tsk tsk.