every mummy's enemy

so we've entered the 15th day of the month -APRIL- the month where my miracle was 'awarded' to me about 2 years ago :) as our lil family is busy planning for her 2nd bday party, here it comes again, my biggest enemy (in fact,it's every mom's biggest enemy) the evil COUGH. it started 2 nights ago, out of no where.exactly about a month ago, mr. cough attacked nia but that was due to the cold wheather in u.k. Around 2 months ago, mr.cough also visited lil nia, but that was due to nia's notty habit while swimming in the pool -minum air pool curi2-

and as her mom,i have this instinct and was 'waiting' nervously to 'hear' mr.cough knocking on the door.well, true enough, it just happened while she was sleeping at night - complete with the 'phlegm package'!! i was worried sick. and maybe due to my -imbalancehormonnestate- i just broke into tears, couldn't accept why it has to come for a regular visit for 3 months in a row!!so i 'instructed' mr.barney to bring her to her paed coz for the past 2 months we just took the medicines (without seeing the doctor due to time constraint).i felt quite guilty at the same time coz we also have another appointment with her paed at p.m.c that was due last march.tapi tak pegi2 jugak.. :(

as nervous as waiting for exam result,i called my hubby just now and asked him what the doctor said.the doctor suspected maybe she has asthma but both of us do not have it.so her phlegm dh banyak n she had to pakai the neubalizer (again)!apa lagi mengamuk la makcik garang tu! the only thing we could suspect is her latest habit, suka sgt masuk semua jari n tgn dlm mulut!!i thought it only happened when she was a baby!since she's nearly 2, dah pandai la jugak melawan bila org kata no tu kan.so there's nothing much we could do from stopping her from menjilat2 tangan dan jari yg memang tak bersih setiap masa tu....huhhhhhuuuuuuuuu

so, here it goes again,the 'usual' routine of makan ubat..penat betul bagi budak 2tahun yg tak suka mkn ubat ni.mencabar.

dear nia,mummy always pray for your good health, more than anything else in this world. now, this is the part where i feel it is 'mentally torturing' in becoming a mummy to small children -u know which part nia?the part when i get worried like there's no tomorrow everytime u got sick. for all my worries for you, sangat2 la beyond words, and this is one of the things that u cannot pay back even with rm1 mil. same like the day when u were born 2 years ago...

luvnote: to 'redeem' my guilty feeling, mummy has made an appointment with both az-zahrah and p.m.c paed on your 2nd birthday itself! so let's spend the whole 28th april for your medical check up k sayang :)

my light during the night....

last night when i was asleep on our bed at the love nest, somebody woke me up.

"mummyy.....bangun...."so i opened my eyes and looked at the clock, it was 4.30 am..."mummyy...nak suussuuu.." so i got up from my bed and told her nicely, "nia dodok jap okk??mummy turun buat suuusuu k??" it was one of the rare occasion where she would just agree (instead of wanting to follow me along) so she said "okkk..." lega dalam hati mummy tak payah dukung nia turun mlm2 dgn mata terpisat2...

so while i was making her milk, i heard her voice sayup2 "mummyy...mummy.." i quickly naik atas and she was just ok, lying on the bed. she drank her milk, half way thru mata hampir tertutup so i felt lega once more coz i was so sleepy at that time. when she finished her milk, i took the bottle from her withour saying anything (usually i each time she finished minum susu i would say "alhamdulill..." and she would sambung "..lahhh..". when i thought she already closed her eyes, i heard her saying "alhamdulillah..." and so i smiled...baru mata ni nak tutup balik, she said "mummy, nak baca doa"..ish..pelik pulak nia ni. so i recited surah al-fatihah and we both menadah tangan (sambil i mata gam). just when i thought nak tido lagi, she said "mummy, nak salam mummy..." i know i easily got pissed off if my sleep diganggu but this time around, aduhh..sayunya hati ni...u know?

then she continued..."nak cerita pasal london dengan mummy..." we always have this kind of conversation especially before she goes to sleep, we recap events that already happened in her life and i always let her tell her own "version" of stories..good enough, this story telling session memang kuatkan memory dia bout past events...but not at somewhere around 5 in the morning!hehe..so we crita2 for a while n the notty mummy pretended to sleep. but lil nia continued by saying..."nia taknak tidoo..." "nak mummy dokong..." so i asked her where she wanna go? she said she wanted to join her daddy watch tv outside..so i said" nia duduuk dgn daddy, mummy sleep k?mummy nak work esok..mummy ngantok.."

"tak nak..nak mummy duduk sebelah nia,ok??" hhmm... "ok"..so i carried her in front of the tv, she sat on the couch and watched tv while i had to sleep next to her...sitting position.phew..and then i continued my journey to lala land at 5 am...zzzz....nia, sometimes u can act so sweet n so goodie goodie at night, kan?how i wish u're not so garang during day time..hehe

we are back !

alhamdulillah things were great and the trip was fun but really really tiring :)

and there were too many pictures taken but what's so special with the above pictures?

coz the last time we went there 3 years ago, we took picture on the same bench and now, there's someone in between, and another one inside my jacket :p

so sentimental....

hello london (in 24 hours time)

hey lil nia karlyssa! remember this? this pic was taken in october 2007, when u were about 2months 'young' in mummy's tummy:) we 'brought' you there so that you could 'feel the freshness' of london's air with the hope to come back again in the future!hehe..we didnt have a clue whether you were a boy or a girl at this point of time, so daddy bought loottsss of boy's clothes for you!!mummy geram je tgk baju girls waktu ni :(

but now, as in tonight, alhamdulillah murah rezeki, we are able to bring you there again!this time you can be there 'physically' sayang! oh ya, it's spring (tho the weather is so like winterr... ) so be prepared for all the pretty dresses!this time mummy will balas dendam!hehe...and again, this time, mummy is going to bring along your lil bro/sis in my tummy:) what a dejavu kan? and again, since we r still not sure of the gender, daddy will have the 'kuasa veto' to buy all the 'tengkorak' rompers just like he did last time :( huhu...

anyway, really hope and pray this journey will be safe and smooth for all of us, coz this is your first experience sitting on the airplane for 13 hours!! this is totally different from bandung and hong kong ya darling?? hopefully you tak poo poo in the plane and plsss behave and jgn boring nak jalan2 dlm plane or demand nak dengar lagu daddy or tgk barney or elmo je!! coz i wont be bringing those cds along!!huhu

let's get colddddd for the next 2 weeks sayang!muah!

pengantin cny + valentine

pengantin lama (that's what they said:P)

as they themselves are photographer,just look at their pelamin!gerammm!!hehe..wonderfully done by the wedding fairies

upacara bawak lari hand bouquet yang agak lama :p

our small "apple + lemon" family

me and the january bride :P

sebok je rampas hand bouquet from the bride!

nia and her "e'e"

she lovessss the hand bouquet :)

the 3 beradikss

wangi*my sis*me*my sis in law

mmummy dearest:)

with my 2 chickiess

hindustani potong pulut kuning :)

me with my sis in law and my hubby's cousins

it was a hindustan song at this particular moment

haha baru perasan cara i bagi nia minum betul2 mcm "hindustan":P

tengoklah "pottu" dekat dahi dia yg tahan tak sampai 5 minit tu:P

*nikah at the mosque*

my one and only (lil)brother got married finally...in february:) the nikah ceremony was held at malacca on the 5th feb 2010 and the groom's reception was held at our parents place in bandar baru bangi on the 14th feb 2010. the night before, (13th feb) we had a small 'bollywood theme' reception, just a simple makan2, and joget sakan :) it was fun tho..congrats bujel for your 'sekali lafaz'!now i have a new sis in law:) *wink wink*

well,let the pictures do the talking,just to share a few, randomly from my sis's camera and a few from the official photog...

a little update on the hot bun in the oven :)

the first time the bump looked quite 'obvious' :p

im about 16 weeks or 4 months right now. already entered my 2nd trimester and alhamdulillah, 2nd trimester has always been the best moment out of the 3! haha. i took a rest from writing simply because i couldnt give my full attention to it. everytime i go to my own blog, i feel automatically blank and the thought of pressing my fingers on the keypad just turned me off. haha.so i wandered around, bloghopping...but the mood was just not there..therefore the silence.

about a week after my last entry, my all-day-sickness came...this time around it's everywhere, everytime and so irritating.i just feel the need to vomit-to let it all out of my body...lidah tu tak payah cakap, pahit all the time....i keep on spitting and spitting into the plastic bag dlm my office room ni.appetite? nothing but SUSHI KING. i need to have it at least once a week la.but i didnt eat the raw one,just yg goreng2 tu...sedapnya rasa kalau dpt sushi...syukur tak terhingga! but alhamdulillah, despite of the nausea, malas, muntah, pening and all; mr.flu, mr.cough, or mr.piles tak dtg menjenguk during the first trimester, unlike when i was with nia. back then i had to take a lot of medications and it makes me worried.i felt that the "rasa loya mulut pahit" kali ni lebih mencabar sampai my boss pun tegur kata i didnt gain weight!haha. but finally in the middle of january, the vomitting stopped (but as a closure, i vomitted 4 times in a row selang sejam waktu tgh tido!!that was horror ok!!)then that was it. alhamdulillah. stakat ni m.c pun skali je,unlike waktu nia dulu, slalu mc coz mcm2 penyakit dtg...sekarang ni penyakit 'malas' je yg slalu dtg :p

now that ive entered my 2 nd trimester, tak dapat sushi king pun takpa, coz appetite dtg balik, dgn banyaknya!!huhu...the little bump started to appear around end of january.i can still wear my normal office attire coz they are stretchable but of course la kain kurung tu semuanya unzipped! will need to find new office attire soon...and as of today, kulit semakin kering, and mr.flu dtg mengacau...i dont take any medication coz malas so lagi la irritating..well, on my last checkup 29th jan hari tu, i saw my little angel, already formed into human being with legs and hands and bones!quite suprised coz sometimes i tend to forget i have a human being inside here coz tak rasa lagi dia tendang kan...the baby was kind of meniarap/swimming position and was actively moving his/her hands and legs as if he/she was jumping!!haha totally different from nia karlyssa when she was 11 weeks in my tummy! but the sad thing was, i gained 2 kgs between my 2nd last check up and my last check up!! see, told cha nafsu makan semakin mengganas :p

alhamdulillah, nia knows she's getting an adik but there's another story bout it.nanti la. it's just that im really glad and syukur that my pregnancy survived to the 2nd trimester. lil bun in the oven, see you this 27th ya? muah!

p/s: my lil bun has a 'twin' which is my auntie's lil bun in the oven too!my busu is also 16weeks preggy and our edd is almost on the same date!!how exciting can that be??hehe

good bye puting :)

she has a total of 7 pacifiers a.k.a puting at one time. how good/bad is that for a girl who is turning 2 years old in 2 months time?? actually i have a lot of other pictures with nia and her puting but they are still in my digi cam. see, that's the problem, it became an irritating habit. first it started with "nak tido only hisap puting"...then the gian'ness' grew bigger and bigger and puting became her number one best friend.inseparable. every single second she will keep on thinking bout it, and ask for her "teng'ghe" (that's how she called it). end up, she hisap her puting out of no reason or necessity.saja2 sedap nak melekat. sampai nak take pictures pun she refused to take it out! tu yg mummy geram tu....

my parents keep on telling me, it's better for me to put a stop to her habit. nanti gigi rosak la, tak lawa la sebab dah besar and etc....and they keep on telling me that all 3 of us (me n my siblings) stopped hisap puting by the age of 1. how my father did it? he burnt our puting until they became black and mengerekot and menggelikan.haha.it sounds so easy peasy but i keep on procrastinating. lagipun mr.barney asyik cakap, "takpe...i dulu hisap puting sampai darjah 2..." well that is a DIFFERENT story, itu mmg geram la kan??i will never let my children hisap puting sampai masuk sekolah!haha.barney siap ckp dia selalu gantung sampai 3,4 or 5 puting sekaligus at one time!!sumpah geram!! :p

so, finally the magical day arrived. around 3 weeks ago, on a saturday, 30th January 2010, my father tiba2 took one of nia's fav puting, a pink one and asked me to carry her.so we went to the dapur gas, my father lite the fire and we created a story to nia who was terrified looking at her puting kena bakar!!she didn't cry or scream, she was trying to understand the situation but at the same time geli and takut tgk puting kena bakar dgn api. but my father was a bit frustrated coz the puting refused to turn black!haha.dia kata puting dulu2 senang je tukar jadi hitam..so i replied back "ye la puting skrg kualiti, silicone lebih pastu mahal pulak tu!! of course la kalau kena bakar pun still warna putih!hehe".

later that night, nia kept on asking for her "teng'ghe" but i tried to remind her of the 'bakar dengan api' punya story.but of course la, first time kan, hati i pun cair tgk she kept on crying so i bagi dia hisap yg lain, dlm 5 minutes je then dia sendiri bagi blk.on sunday, we went out and i brought 2 putings along- one yg terbakar tu, lagi satu yg elok punya. in the car, she tried to sleep and as usual she needs puting in order to go to sleep. sebab kesian, i kata ok, tapi kejap je.she used it for about less than 5 minutes, fell asleep, then that's it. the toughest part came later at night during bed time.suddenly she mengamuk, meraung, ran to the stairs and called for the maids...she knew the putings were kept downstairs and merayuuuuu for it...haih..mummy pun failed, kesian n tak sanggup tgk dia nangis, so i gave in and alhamdulillah after a few minutes, dia sendiri keluarkan from her mouth and fell asleep.a good start after 2 days, i shall say.

little did i know, that night was the last drama i have to face coz i couldnt believe it, my nia is one strong girl who could be 'redha and pasrah' (haha) in letting go of her 'best friend'. the next day onwards, everytime she asked for it, all i did was asked her back, "puting nia jadi apa?" and she will continue the story herselves "atok bakar...dengan api...jadi panas...phuh phuh phuh (konon2 tiup la)"...then she will say "taknak puting". and now, mummy is proud to say you have survived for 3 weeks without your puting and i respect you for your determination and understanding, dear:) thank you so much for not making it a hard time for both mummy and daddy. see barney, siapa kata susah nak stop anak kita from hisap puting?? :p now senang, keluar pun tak payah bawak puting or fikir pasal hygiene reasons.... congratulations nia karlyssa! muah!!