the girl in kurung(s) part deux

this cute red nyonya kebaya was bought for u by nenek and u wore it for our raya photoshoot :)

this white kebarung was given to u from opah and nek su made it personally for u:)

this was on the 5th day of raya, during our first trip to ipoh, daddy's kampung :)


this was on the 4th day of raya, in kl and this cute pinkish kebaya was bought by nenek (again)hehe



see, told cha u really loveee kuih raya a.k.a muruku sayang!

oohh, the kain batik (as opposed to the 'belah tepi' red kebaya) is a 'duyung' style.haha.so i remembered,u were walking slowly, all prim and proper :)

this one was also given to u from opah.as u can see, u lovee kurung, maybe becoz it's less tight and u can walk freelyyyyyy:)

oh, look how cute and moody u were on the first day of raya! mummy has exactly the same pair kurung pahang (except mine has lotsaa beads on it!!) mummy bought the material and sent it to the tailor.u looked so 'rendang' in it (mcm pokok rendang!) haha. as far as i can remember, the hairband only lasted for not more than an hour!!!huhu

so darling nia, u passed with flying colours for this year's raya in wearing all your kurungs successfully without leaving any of them behind! let's see what's gonna happen next year?? muach to u munchkin!!

if she was a boy.....

somehow i pity my lil nia.hehe she's already 1 year 6 months but her hair is still so shortie. but lately i can already make a smallie tiny pony tail. well, that's a big achievement already!!haha dont they sell hair extensions for toddlers??hehe

my hubby and i have this issue on styling nia. i, obviously, love to style her according to my sense of style = feminine+funky+stylo+comel+sweet and the list goes on...

my hubby on the other hand, love styling her according to his style = sneakers and lottsss of sneakers!!u name it, how many pairs of adidas and nikes does she have at this particular age??geram i coz end up nia pakai kadang2 aje n last2 dah tak muat!!dah la mahal, so the daddy always blame the mummy on this!!hehe, i always tell him, tunggu u dapat shugagi (a s0n) la, dia boleh pakai semua kasut ni..

so, my hubby likes to dress nia with sneakers + dress especially when im not there to monitor!!but, i think if the sneakers are paired together with the dresses, they look cute tho!like barney said, i want her to dress like lily allen!haha

what's the relevance of the pictures above?well on that particular day, it was the 3rd day of raya and nia became a 'victim' of fashion to his father!she was wearing a kurung to mahkota parade and hubby thought, "let's buy her something she'll be more comfortable to walk with". so he picked up a BASEBALL player punya suit!!and lil nia ran with her diapers to the girl rack and she picked up a girlie suit!!see, nia has a fashion sense after all, and she obviously knows she's a girl!!hahaha..but since daddy was paying, nia pun pakai baju baseball tu...

so dont u think she looks a looooottt like a boyieeee what more with her shortie hair??nenek dia mmg geram la tgk nia jadi boy kejap!haha..can imagine how my 'future' son will look like :0

the girl in kurung...

sorry nia, mummy is busy and so malas in updating this blog..but i dont wanna miss blogging bout my lil princess in her kurungs during raya :) well...just so that you remember, these pictures were taken during 2nd day of raya, syawal 2009 when u were about 1 year 5 months..u enjoyed wearing the blue/yellow kurung with lotsa beadings (tho the kain was a bit meleret) which mummy bought for only rm50 at qassa s.parade :) i remembered my heart screamed with excitement when i saw this kurung hanging cutely on the rack:) and u were at nek andak's house in malacca. this year,u learnt the meaning of 'kuih raya'. u are a bit choosy and you have your own favourite kuih raya:) look at you, just look at you, how 'makcik-makcik' were you?? choosing ur own balang and running away with them! so tamak eh? well, nia, pls remember, ur first fav kuih raya that u chose by urself is MARUKU or also known as 'kuuuu' (as pronounced by you:)

your 2nd year of raya :)

makcik kecik kain belah tepi :p


lets tango with my kitten heels!

oops, kain terbelah! haha
our family raya picture at creative litebox studio :)

on the 9th day of syawal or 28th September 2009, my nia turned 1 year 5 months old :)

this time around, she celebrated her hari raya wholeheartedly! she wore 5 baju kurung/kebayas, for 5 days in a row! and im proud to say she was comfortably happy in her sarongs and heels! no complaints at all! lil diva in the making :p

she also knows the meaning of 'salam' when we asked her to do it, she appreciates the 'angpaus' and successfully became a makcik yg menyebok nak pilih kuih mana yg sedap :p huhu..she even broke a cookie jar at one of our relative's house!menjerit la mummy dia !hehe

one thing yg geram, my 12 kilos nia doesnt like to wear her hairband anymore:( membazir je beli, she only wore it for about an hour then terus bukak! as compared to last year when all she could do was to lie down, cute je dgn hairbandnye :)

let the pictures speak for themselves:) raya 2009, from bangi to pj to kl to malacca to kl to ipoh to rawang....phew....but it sure was a memorable one and different from the previous years :)

nia, u are still my one and only baby

the pictures above were taken about 3 weeks ago,when i was 6 weeks pregnant. the photo shoot was supposed to be an intimate one, between me and nia.and we dressed according to what ive been dreaming off all these while, white dresses :)

i was quite surprised when i found out i was pregnant, this time around i didnt cry like my first experience. in fact i was blank and felt a bit unready. but as soon as i found out on the 23rd june, i told my hubby n family and all of us accepted the news happily :) this time i didnt feel like announcing the news to everyone a.s.a.p, except to the closed ones. i felt unsure and all i wanted was to have a look at my fetus by going for a scan.

the next day i went for a scan at my gynae and i was about 4 weeks ++ preggy. the doctor couldnt trace the sack,it was unclear but i was positively pregnant.so she asked me to come again in 2 weeks time. when i was 7 weeks preggy, nia was admitted to the hospital coz she had food poisoning.i took 5 days to take extra good care of her until she fully recovered. so i didnt have the chance to see my gynae...

i just went to a g.p and did a scan.so there it was, the little sack but it took quite some time for us to see it clearly. i felt a bit different coz during nia's time,we could already see her heart blinking by 7 weeks. but the doctor told me it was still early so come in 2 more weeks time to see the heart beat.i took the scan picture and put it in my bag.from that day on, i started to feel love towards the little thing in my stomach :)

the feeling was different this time coz ive been loving nia with all my heart for 14 months and when someone new is expected,i felt confused, whether i can divide my love, care and attention equally??will i still have time for my lil shoba after this? my mom told me that it's a normal feeling for every mother.eventually, you will love all your children without any biasness.so i accept it and try to learn to be a mother of 2!

i went for my conference on the 21st-24th july and as soon as i came back, i was already 9 weeks preggy..no bad feeling at all, just vomitted once, a bit of nausea and everything else was good.until saturday evening i felt fatigue and lenguh2 badan...but i ignore it.ye lah,dgn layan budak 15 months yg tgh buas lagi kan...on sunday night,i started bleeding.was worried and i went for a scan straight away. the news that i got was not good at all and i waited to see my gynae the next day.

on monday, 27th july, i was still bleeding and my gynae confirmed to us that my fetus was so small and did not develop.in fact it's development was like a 6 weeks old fetus when it's supposed to be 9 weeks old.no heart beat, no little fingers or whatsoever.the sack was empty and the bleeding happened coz it's a natural way/sign of miscarriage. we have to face the fact that the fetus was defective and it's better to lose it now than later.

so i had a d & c on the same day.i was given a sleeping jab and as soon as i opened my eyes,lil nia was hugging me on the hospital bed.and we buried the unborn fetus in front of our house.

i believe there must be a reason behind this.Allah yg menentukan segalanya, mungkin ada rezeki di masa hadapan, insyaallah nia akan dapat adik lagi ya:) alhamdulillah,i am strong enough and i thank my family for giving me full support.

to hubby,i know how frustrated you are,i know u want a baby from hong kong right?sorry dear, ive been taking good care of it for 9 weeks and ive been eating all the supplements and milk religiously.but Allah has a better plan fo us, insyaallah.

some people are just insensitive

how would u feel if someone says this to your innocent 1 year old child?:

"ee, gangster la dia ni.dah besar sure jadi pembuli.sure buli semua org kat sekolah"; or

"evil, evil, evil, evil" (i lost count brapa kali dia sebut evil)

okay,there is an issue here.everyone,i mean literally, everyone would feel offended and angry if it happens to their child.who won't?especially when it came out from someone whom u r not close with and all this while u've been sick with that someone's laser mouth.especially when those untolerable words were spoken to an innocent child who doesnt even understand 'life' and who is still in the phase where she wants to explore and learn more about herself. what was that person thinking when those words came out from his/her mouth?? what did my child do to that person that made the stupid person uttered those words??

thank god my lil nia didnt understand what that person was saying and thank god, she didnt even bother to go to that person or even looked at that person.nia must have felt that person's bad aura. i was really really angry and pissed off till i became speechless.im so sorry nia for not being able to defend u as my child.as a mother i should have done that.but all i know, u are one smart girl who behaves and mummy is proud of your development. u were doing your own 'gugu gaga cute things' when that 'stranger' tried to interfere and gave stupid negative comments.yup.that person was stupid. that person doesnt even know you or your developments.an adult who loves to give negative synical comments,laser,disrespectful and arrogant. mummy is not suprise coz all this while ive tried to tolerate with it. but when that person crossed the boundary and did this to my baby child, i juz cant accept it anymore.

to that person.u have not reached my level yet.so dont talk much about handling a toddler.it's way different than handling an infant.u can only learn from experience. there's no hard and fast rules when it comes to handling a toddler yang dalam fasa nak explore things and be creative. there's no theoritical methods, parental instincts will tell you what to do. after all, my daughter is not buas or uncontrollable.go ask my close frens. it's just you that have an issue with your mouth.please be extra sensitive to other people's feeling, especially if u ckp dpn mak budak tu. apa lah dosa seorang budak kecil yg masih belum kenal dunia sampai u rasa u layak nak cakap anak org evil?who are you by the way? what if someone says the same thing to your own flesh and blood?

well, i believe in karma.

p/s:on another note, last nite we went for nia's chicken pox's jab.the paed told us that nia doesnt look and doesnt act like a 1 year 1 month child. she's like a 1 year 6 months physically and mentally!haha.the paed told us that at her age, being able to speak 4 clear words are good enough.but when she heard nia talking to her (as in talk, not baby talk)she was impressed.by the way, nia can already speak about 10 words! well sayang,only 'intelligent' people like the paed deserves to tell you who you are:) dont listen to some stupid lalat like the one ive mentioned above.

love you:)

memories

i found these pictures in my camera (which i tak sempat upload pun lagi)

and these are the pictures of our tv yg sempat i ambil semenjak pindah

what r u guys doing right now?we missed u terribly :(