every mummy's enemy

so we've entered the 15th day of the month -APRIL- the month where my miracle was 'awarded' to me about 2 years ago :) as our lil family is busy planning for her 2nd bday party, here it comes again, my biggest enemy (in fact,it's every mom's biggest enemy) the evil COUGH. it started 2 nights ago, out of no where.exactly about a month ago, mr. cough attacked nia but that was due to the cold wheather in u.k. Around 2 months ago, mr.cough also visited lil nia, but that was due to nia's notty habit while swimming in the pool -minum air pool curi2-

and as her mom,i have this instinct and was 'waiting' nervously to 'hear' mr.cough knocking on the door.well, true enough, it just happened while she was sleeping at night - complete with the 'phlegm package'!! i was worried sick. and maybe due to my -imbalancehormonnestate- i just broke into tears, couldn't accept why it has to come for a regular visit for 3 months in a row!!so i 'instructed' mr.barney to bring her to her paed coz for the past 2 months we just took the medicines (without seeing the doctor due to time constraint).i felt quite guilty at the same time coz we also have another appointment with her paed at p.m.c that was due last march.tapi tak pegi2 jugak.. :(

as nervous as waiting for exam result,i called my hubby just now and asked him what the doctor said.the doctor suspected maybe she has asthma but both of us do not have it.so her phlegm dh banyak n she had to pakai the neubalizer (again)!apa lagi mengamuk la makcik garang tu! the only thing we could suspect is her latest habit, suka sgt masuk semua jari n tgn dlm mulut!!i thought it only happened when she was a baby!since she's nearly 2, dah pandai la jugak melawan bila org kata no tu kan.so there's nothing much we could do from stopping her from menjilat2 tangan dan jari yg memang tak bersih setiap masa tu....huhhhhhuuuuuuuuu

so, here it goes again,the 'usual' routine of makan ubat..penat betul bagi budak 2tahun yg tak suka mkn ubat ni.mencabar.

dear nia,mummy always pray for your good health, more than anything else in this world. now, this is the part where i feel it is 'mentally torturing' in becoming a mummy to small children -u know which part nia?the part when i get worried like there's no tomorrow everytime u got sick. for all my worries for you, sangat2 la beyond words, and this is one of the things that u cannot pay back even with rm1 mil. same like the day when u were born 2 years ago...

luvnote: to 'redeem' my guilty feeling, mummy has made an appointment with both az-zahrah and p.m.c paed on your 2nd birthday itself! so let's spend the whole 28th april for your medical check up k sayang :)