Sunday, December 20, 2009
-craving for food,food and food
-nausea, rasa pahit dekat lidah
- and of course, red flag tak dtg!
alhamdulillah, im currently pregnant for the third time, entering my 8th week:)
i knew i was preggy on the day of aidiladha.did the test and it was positive. felt happy and ready mentally and emotionally this time. i had a miscarriage in july and my gynae advised me to 'rest' for 3 months. immediately after the 3 months ended, i got pregnant again. with the blessing that i got (subur/senang lekat org kata) still ada dugaan yang tuhan nak bagi.
i have to say im quite traumatized this time, coz i dont wanna lose my baby again.so i decided to keep it low until the day i can see the heartbeat. i went for my first checkup when i was 4 weeks 6 days pregnant. there was a sac but it was still early to see the heart beat. i was given 'duphaston' -ubat kuat rahim once a day. so, the doctor set me another date to see the heart beat, which was on the 19th dec when the baby was supposed to be around 7 weeks plus. by that time, there's supposed to be a heart beat -well that's what my gynae said.
so i went home feeling nervous, waiting for that date.i can tell you, i had sleepless nights, dreaming of the lil thing...im scared and was really hoping it would stay and grow in my womb. finally, the scariest moment came. it was on the 12th December, a week before i was supposed to see the heart beat. fyi, my nia was having a bad fever around that time, with flu and coughs. i had to handle her, crying in the middle of the night, vomitting and wanted to be 'dukung' all the time. so during maghrib, i went to the toilet and there it was, fresh blood spots on my panty liner. i cried and went panicked right there and then. my gynae was not available during weekends so i went to my family clinic to do a scan right away. the sac was still there looking al round and beautiful, the growth and measurement was right but there was no heart beat to be seen. only god knows how worried i was. the doctor advised me to have a bed rest, tak boleh dukung nia langsung and to monitor the bleeding. since the 'thing' is still there,i should take a good care of it,but i can never be too sure selagi tak nampak heart beat.Ya Allah, macam kena tindan dgn batu je perasaan nak tunggu nampak heart beat. rasa mcm nak beli machine scan and scan hari2 kat rumah. that was how i felt.
so, i was given mc for 2 days and to have enough rest. the next few days the vaginal discharge tu mcm brownish (darah lama). until tgh malam isnin, pinkish stain ada when i went to the toilet. i didnt dukung nia at all and she was passed to everybody else in that house BUT ME:( tapi,since budak demam, i still have to handle her and she's quite lasak, no wonder keluar lagi blood stain. i became fragile and literally couldnt do all the remeh temeh things yang before this in my eyes was no problem at all. turun tangga pun tak boleh..baring je la...
on tuesday i went to see my gynae coz the stail still came out.when she scanned my tummy, there was a big round sac but still, NO HEART BEAT. and i was already 7 weeks.scared as hell, she quickly did the vaginal ultrasound and as soon as the 'stick' was inserted into my v, masya Allah, there was a heart beat!!laju and normal and mcm nia dulu:)))) actually, the position of the baby terperosok and tersorok ke tepi that's why it was hard to see through tummy scan (mind you, our tummy skin tebal, dengan lemak lagi ) so vaginal ultrasound is the best way to see without any sempadan, it went direct to your womb and alhamdulillah my baby is still there and doing fine:) rase nak nagis sgt2 time tu.
at last all my prayers and questions have been answered. i was confused and my mind was so messed up and stressed up wanting to know is the baby still there or not coz the bleeding still continues. alhamdulillah it is still here, in my womb, growing and growing:)
my gynae told me the bleeding must be due to the thinning of my uterus during the process of conceiving..so nothing to be worried as long as there is a heart beat, darah tak fresh and mengalir mcm period.so a lot of rest need to be taken, no angkat berat (esp nia) at least until the end of my 1st trimester and my duphaston need to be taken twice daily. there will be another follow up check up next week to see the development of the baby. and oh, the spotting stopped completely after 5 days. my feeling?still scared and need to be extra carefullll.....sorry nia, it's not that mummy tak syg you ke apa,but mummy xboleh dukung nia, kalau tak sampai bila la nia takde adik :( sacrifice k sayang?
insyaallah...hope to see the baby in 7 months time:)
Sunday, November 22, 2009
haha.this was funny.it appeared live on air, on a sunday morning,on father's day (somewhere in june). my nia even pooped a loottttt few minutes before her call time and mummy yg gelabah cari toilet kat ntv7 tu to clean her and make sure she looks good on tv:)
Thursday, November 19, 2009
the pictures above were taken in may, during our trip to hong kong when nia was about 13 months. that was the first time i saw nia 'feeding' her two bears, so i quickly grabbed the camera to capture the moment! we (me n hubby) both found it super duper cute to see her sharing her meal and milk with her bears,in her own will!tanpa paksaan, tanpa suruhan:)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
**my biggest frustation is when i had the urgency to go back home, only to find out that she was already asleep....it's equivalent to not seeing her AT ALL for one whole day...rugi sangat sangat dah satu satu hari...all i did was to look at her sleeping face and kiss her puas-puas :( well, that's one of the millions dillemas a working mother will have to face.... :( **
Monday, November 9, 2009
finally, with this new baby + maxis broadband + sony cable (i lost the old one)= online and balas dendam uploading picturessssss (thanks barney!)
my first birthday treat, just the 2 of us. we both felt sooo like 5 years back on that particular nite :p
my second treat by my besties at kokopelli. recommended foods :) and ambiance too :) then they treated me with Cuci The Musical !
Friday, November 6, 2009
this is me, on my 2nd day at the hospital. i lost about 1000grams and i think i can wear skinny jeans now.haah.
i finally got admitted on 2nd nov, my nenek's bday (see,i choose my date well!!) after 5 days of continuous diarrhea and vomitting....
this pic was taken on the first day i got sick (29th oct)..i was too tired of all the sickness and lack of sleep...thank God it was not rotavirus, just a stubborn kind of virus that only went away after 7 days residing in my chubby body :(
* alhamdulillah, my baby nia was discharged on the 4th nov after 3 days in the hospital and the diarrhea has stopped since then. according to the doctor, it must be due to the things she pick and put into her mouth.huhu. nia, pls take note that this is the 2nd time in this year that u broke ur parents' bank account!pls la syg,be more careful coz mummy couldnt control u when u r out of my sight :(
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
u walked confidently and didnt collapsed! such a good try baby :)
look at you, trying on my new shoes before i could even wear it!
haha it was not easy finding this for you!thought of getting a second one for you but the search was neverending... :( nasib baik la kasut hitam ni terjumpa dekat warta :)
u seem to enjoy this shoes very much, do u know that? everytime we ask you to go and pick up a shoes before we go out, you will come out from the room with this pair!!
this is another proof, main ptg2 dekat luar pun nak pakai kasut ni :)
oh, and do u remember the incident at ur playground dkt our love nest tu?ada sorng kakak darjah 5 tu screamed "eh main dkt padang pun nak pakai kasut tinggi ke??mana boleh!!"